Tuesday, July 07, 2009 . 4:41 PM

Okay here's something interesting to share.
I've never told anyone about this
except my family members that know so yeah..
Maybe i told people like zhenfeng or worm too, cant rmbr if it slipped out.

OK There's this uneven bone growth at my kneecap area,
which irritates my nerves at the knee cap everytime i touch that bump.
Well, its kinda tiny and looks harmless.
But once you press it the pain really numbs your entire limb up to the hips.
Initially i thought it was caused by a primary school incident,
which i lifted my knee up just nice to slam into the edge of my table.
So i though that incident cut a piece of bone loose on my knee cap. lol

But because at the end of May, that little bone started to cause sharp
pains to the knee even when i sit or stand, so my parents asked me to consult
the family doctor, and he told me its not because of that primary school thingy.
But rather its just, like i said, uneven bone growth that protrudes out
and causes irritations and sharp pains to your knee.
He told me he was exaggerating when he said it was a TUMOUR, and
went to give me a more detailed name for that problem.
Its called Osteochondroma. Wiki it if you want.
Then he gave me examples of why such a thing will happen to me,
No walls are perfect, you get bumps and grooves and holes everywhere.

So im just unlucky it grows where my nerves run over.
He also said it wont be much of a problem unless i do intensive physical activities
and then it'll really start to hurt.
Then i asked him how do i actually get rid of it, or improve on the problem,
because i think 75% of my life is based on physical acitvities :D,
And 50% of that 75% is intensive. LOL
Haha and he said that the best thing i could really do is go for an operation
to file it off, or saw the darn thing till my knee cap is smooth.
Which in turns comes to the main part about this ridiculously long post that im typing.

In life there'll be certain decisions that you must make,
crucial, important, life-changing decisions.
That operation is just one of the many.
If i dont go for the operation, and leave my knee like this,
I might have difficulty walking or even bending my legs as i grow older,
and when my bone gets stiffer and solid. Making things and activities
very inconvinient and uncomfortable.
If i go for it to file it off, it's true the problem will definitely go away.
But he added i might not even be able to walk again.
Because the filing and sawing will in turn rupture a few nerves,
Or damage the bone structure of my knee cap.

So sometimes the options that are presented during lifetime
need not neccessarily be a win option, and a lose option.
Both might be win options, or both may be lose options.
And its those options presented that make you experience the decision making.
Which will in turn very directly/indirectly affect you as a person.

Think real thorough before choosing what's best for not only yourself though,
but rather the people living around you.
Whether will it affect what happens in the future.
And that after you finally picked your option, stick with it.
Because regrets are always a waste of time.
Im still trying to improve on that too. haha

About the bone thing, i havent come to a conclusion myself too.
I actually wrote this in one of my chinese compo
and i posted it as a question to Mdm Goh in the last line.
I think i lost it so.. yeah dont ask me anything about it.
By the way, if you think i made all this up, then so be it.
I dont have time for those nonsence tags.
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Okay, thats all for that little long piece of my mind. haha.
I feel that i should also stop whining to a certain someone about
how imperfect (or is it in/un?) somethings are,
about how i always cant seem to get the attention that most of us wants.
There's only less than 5 more months to wait for
so i should just walk the remaining road on my own and quietly.
I know how irritating it gets when i keep repeating the same stuff for
2 hours and eventually not coming to a conclusion at all.
Sometimes we ask questions not because we want answers,
but because we want to see whether other person's answer is the
same as ours.
Am i right to say that?
So yeah, i think she needs a break too -.-
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Haha before i really end this ridiculously long post,
Im going to stop posting or leave the blog for a while.
because im going to throw away my laptop.

Okay just kidding, im not going to throw it away.
But im not going to on my com unless its for
schoolwork stuff or somethings that i need people to send me or something.
Because when the com's on there always seem to be distractions.
And someone told me yesterday there's 110 days left to Os.
So i think i'll start go to gear 3 from 7th July onwards (:
There's like lots to catch up and revise too.

So yeah.. I hope i stick to my schedule this time round.
Dont worry, I'll blog when i have the urge to again (:

"till some other day"
- www.missing-in-action.blogspot.com