Sunday, April 19, 2009 . 1:50 PM

I feel so lost now.
I have just been assured that something i want will never be able
to fall in my hands. So... yeah im lost.
Its the feeling you get when you've your eyes on something,
and then you're working towards it.
And then suddenly you learn that it will never be in your possession
no matter how hard you try.
And you start feeling as though a part of you had been torn away.
and you dont know what to do.
hence you feel lost.
First it was envy then it was trust
now i realise i cant get both. lol

And other than bicycles i feel like im losing something else
i can't seem to hold on to it.
Its just slipping away every second of.. now?!
Then eventually after it has really left me, will the TIME all this while.
All the effort, all the brain cells,
willl it be worth it?
i dont know.
Its my fault i was never there at all..

Oh well, my weekends seems to be passing by very quickly.
I just spend the whole of ystd's afternoon at bugis and parkway
looking for my hat. BUT TO NO AVAIL.
And i'm never going to bugis street alone again.
Freaks me out.
Then this morning i woke up at 10am,
2 hrs after my scheduled alarm, so i missed 2 hrs of studying.
and now im going to start on my endless war with words and numbers.
-.-
Somebody save me.

Oh. And i think my english is crap.
I can't seem to be getting 20 and above for my essays.
And i'm in a 19/30 streak for all my essays
lol