Monday, March 16, 2009 . 6:44 PM

Back from camp.
Im at a lost of words now and im still trying to rmbr
what happened during the camp and stuff,
But only 1 thing seemed to be screaming in my mind.
I'll tell you that later.

I got back my CA results,
Not satisfied. lol
I failed Geog as predicted,
And a passing mark for Combined Humanities.
Crap. I need to buck up because geog is 1 of my R5/B4.
zzz...
And i told myself that this month i achieved these results is because
of my CCA preliminary report, and everything will be worth it
if i passed it.
It wasnt an excuse for failing subjects, partly it's also my fault too
by not being able to balance out my CCA and my Work.
So yeah..

After the start of camp, Just, DK, WH and I helped
the Senior Scouts/Sec4 Scouts (SS) to plan a gameplan for
that night's night activity.
After that the 4 of us left for HQ to collect the Name Tags for sec 1s.
On the way we crapped alot and talked alot of nonsense to passed the
time by on the bus.
After collecting it was the journey to victoria to collect our report's results.
But before that we had to stuff ourselves first with dinner.
And so we did after once again crapping about where to go for dinner.
"Kallang Airport or Katong Laksa??? Aiyah.... Katong Airport la."

Ate alot alot then we reluctantly took 31 to Victoria School.
Amazingly, throughout the whole journey from the moment we
left ngee ann, we didnt breathe a word about the report.
And all the crapping actually made us forget the anxiety of collecting the results
in a few hours time.
But we had to face it, all 4 of us were reluctant, hesitant,
and at the same time eager to collect our results.

So i shall skip all the bullshit and go straight to the point.
Justin, DK and Waihon passed the report.
The examiner and marker was Goh Kai En (Sp?) of Arrow Scouts
and yeah, he was lenient.
All of the different examiners talked to their candidates on seperate
tables one by one. So its only the examiner talking to the candidate.
However, i realised the ngee ann table had 4 leaders surrounding
one candidate, be it DK, WH, Just, Me.
So i came to the conclusion that many ppl are expecting alot from us Wichita.
And we really cant afford to take a wrong step.

Up till now if you're wondering what happened.
All i can say is that it was totally bad luck.
I missed that minor error, RuHan sir missed that minor error.
Nobody could've seen it, except the examiner.
And that it was really wasted and stupid.
Up till now I'm still in a state of shock/confusion/disappointment...etc
All at the same time.
Kai En said my report was pretty good, but it was really because
of that error that made everything crumble.
And he added on that it was a minor fail.
But i dont care. A minor fail is still a fail.
So dont try to beautify a permanent stain, it'll only make people feel worse.
Now I cant stop thinking about it.
So many people are expecting great things from the 4 of us.
And its really ****ed up letting everyone down.
Just imagine, 4 ngee ann sent for CCA in march.
And if it wasnt for that, all 4 would've passed. 100% you know.
Haiz....
For now, I'll just tell myself what i've heard a million times:
Try again for the upcoming June's aplication, and suck it up.
Lastly, i really wish Justin Waihon and DongKun all the best on 20 and 21st March :)

Other than that,
I cant expose too much of what the SS did during job week camp.
As there are scouts reading my blog so... what we do must still stay confidential.
Lol. But the Confidence walk route i think totally scared
all of the scouts, including sec 2s and 3s.
So once again, it was more successful than last year's confidence walk.
There wasnt a need for people PRETENDING to be ghost
Or people ambushing and jumping out suddenly to scare their hair off.
Because i find it ridiculous and uneccessary.
After all, beings of the night should be respected as well.

Operation Steal the Flag was a complete success.
Pictures with DK.
And hahahaha the stealing part was the most hilarious.

And then the last night was the hammock night
But it didnt finish totally because i had to wake up at 5am to go to the
classroom and sleep because the school's about to open. -.-

Then today everything ended of with
the SS going to Yumin to do service with the cub scouts.
And my adoptive sons were super fun and cute. hahahaa
Pri 4 genius uh... :D Yu Hui and Alvern. WOOO!
At 3.30. we walked back to ngee ann once our sons have been
dismissed from Yumin to go and rejoin their REAL parents.

I wanted to take a bus home, after taking a look at my freaking
big haversack and my crumpler bag and my 2 shoebag
and my sleeping bag and my guitar and my bicycle.
But i stuffed my 2 shoebags and sleeping bag into my haversack,
And my guitar back in class.
Then i carried my crumpler and haversack, got on my bike,
and rode off into the falling droplets of the inverted ocean.

"Come to think of it, was it all worth it...?"