Friday, November 21, 2008 . 9:06 PM

Just realised its been quite a while since i've blog.
Starting to get dead and collecting dust and.. yeah lol

Hmmm... I shall start off with the pre-NPC camp in school.
So yeah worm, me, dk, just, waihon missed EAP when the camp
officially started on a wednesday.
Even though we did manage to finish frame 1 and 2 within half an hour
During the connecting parts there were lots of slowing down due to
miscalculations and incorrect measurements and stuff.
So yeah. screwed up real bad.
So everyone was like ughhh when they heard the word 're-tie' from me
But we dont have a choice, so yeah. its sucks
The atmosphere was further dimmed by the lightning/thunder storm
which lasted from late evening to the next morning.
The heavy pouring of rain stopped around 8, and from then onwards
there was a terrible lightning storm. just pure flashes with no thunder.
scary. My first time and woah... omg

Then thr was backwoodsman... orienteering and the
completion of campsite development.
Even before the camp the planning was already killing me mentally.
Now to add in physical stress... Damn its adding paper on top of fire.

Didnt manage to fully complete my dream campsite in the end.
Due to our lack of pylongs as platforms.
Tried to improvise my i really cant think of anything else
So i came up with plan 2 whr kitchen and living will be on the ground.
After much discussion with mr seah in the art room till 1 am,
realised that many improvisations still need to be made to
the campsite if its gonna be plan 2.

Okay up till now if you're confused and bored, just click the 'back' button.
Because i personally dont think this will interest anyone that
could be reading :/
I wont hate you for doing so.. lol

Anw up to this part, the mental stress came back again.
The inability to fully motivate the team and keep them hyper
keeps weighing down and really brings the whole team down.
Worm got sick so thr's no one to boost the morale.
Thats the part i almost felt like giving up on this whole NPC thing.
Stubborness, and questions are what agitate me the most and
it makes me feel... effed up.
worst thing is that they're coming from the team itself.
Seriously i dont think anyone knws the feeling of the position i am in now.
That is why i keep saying if no one wants to commit to this thing,
what for am i putting in so much effort thinking about it.

Campsite development have alrdy given me so much probs
then comes the pioneering project, the tower.
With questions from grizzly, owl, meerkat all shooting tgt.
I can't produce anymore ideas on the spot anymore.
just so helpless and pathetic. Afterall it was me who suggested
that i'll handle the tower and now seems to be i haven
even started a single shit on it.
So i just simply said i can't do the tower and i really need help on it.
So dolphin sacrificed his sleep and discussed about the tower with
the other heavenly kings while the team rested in the canteen.

The next morning was open house and blah blah
the chiangmai contigent have left alrdy
and just a case of entertaining ppl when they come.
nothing much.
Chandan explained to me the tower discussion held the previous
night and yeah. more stuff cramped into my tiny little storage of info.

Then from then onwards was 1 sunday of rest
and from that monday onwards, it was consecutive NPC training
everyday from 8am to 6pm.
Excluding chiangmai contigent, the team turned up and chionged
everything, with roles settled and a better planning done by
me and marcuslay during that sunday, we briefed the team
and explained the new 8 gadgets that i planned.

Indeed the 5 days really shagged us out.
Nasir having a 2cm deep cut into his shin,
making him unable to go for NPC and darren being in the main team now.
Dongkun having a accidental slash frm waihon's swiss army
left a cut through his vein at the top of his hand.
lucky it was treated fast, it closed up.

And then with so many people gone, my world indeed became a quiet place.
Mainly friends going OBS, chiangmai, PLTC etc.
Everywhr seems to quiet.
Waihon going to bangkok.
And now it leaves the NPC team with me, dk and sam.
It really felt so cold.
And adding the fact that im already so damn stressed up by the competition.
I really just felt like collapsing at that moment.

Another thing that really pisses me off is people that dont understand
the situation the team is going thru now.
And they think that we're free enough to do so many things in a single hour.
Not mentioning that they dont listen and pay attention to a single
crap that's coming out of my mouth when im talking to them.
They don't understand, i tell them.
not bothering to think, they come out with another reckless request.
F***, i got enough shit from my own stuff,
I don't need more shit from ppl of other CCAs.

But now that the ChiangMai peeps are back
I can put myself at rest and haha lie down abit.
because i know the people i can count on are back
and everywhere seems livelier now. (whatever u spell it)
Right now i just need to rest and eat more.
and hope that the people i trust,
can prove to me that i put my trust on the right person.

I know i've never blogged like this before in a long time.
Haha i couldnt take all the stress inside me so i have to let them out
and cos no one seems to be around now, i'll just tell my blog.

"5 more days. Keep the blood flowing Jingyang."