Thursday, October 30, 2008 . 10:18 PM

Im just feeling a mixture of emotions right now.
Angry, sad, frustrated, tired, confused, pissed off.
Mostly the first and the last.
Lots of things have happened both IN singapore
and out there in Jakarta when I was there.
A very long story to begin with.

Extremely disappointing contigent leaders
who mistreated my troopmates right in front of my freaking face.
Threatened to call:
Scout teacher, Unit Leader, Principal, District Commisioner
and the Area Commisioner to complain about our conduct thr.
I've got full confidence out of the above, all of them will
look into the matter thoroughly, and realise that
such an MAGNIFICENT contigent leader is not able to lead such international events.
(I'm refraining from using harsh words as i type.)
This is just the summary and i really dont want to elaborate it here.
The more i type the more my blood boils.

Despite all of the OVERWHELMING TREATMENT we've got there
I believe the whole contigent, including ngee ann wichita
have made many good friends mostly from indonesia, and.... vietnam
It really was a very good experience for me as im a... errr virgin jamboree-er
My first time going for such wonderful event with such
WONDERFUL contigent leaders will definitely leave a mark on my scouting life (:
Picked up many cultural and traditional knowledge of indonesia...
Learned new songs and learned new scouting skills too..
And of course the most important, new friends (:
Ari, Arin, Rheyhan, Sulaimar, Alif, Captain, Sokha Chief and Leonard Tan.
Hahaha all these are the names of good indonesian friends i can rmbr.
Except the 2 last one of course.. lol leonard tan is because tt guy looks like him.
The rest were all rmbr the face and couldnt have a chance to know the name ):
I really miss them now and haiz... cant wait to see them again in 2010 in Singapore
haha (:

Anw now its back to EAP in school.
If im not wrong only Leonard Tan is our new teacher for EH.
So yeah... other than that, going back to school for 4.5 hrs is... okay
OH yeah, sorry guys. i DIdnt buy anything for you when im at indo
Wasnt any time.. or anything appropriate to suit you guys.
So... haiz sorry ):
Feel so damn guilty now after all you guys did to check my papers.
arghhh...
Btw yes, i did grow thinner, darker and uglier.
So please stop asking me... -.-

Okay anyway my results to me were satisfactory for some subjects
Esp Emath and Combine Humanities.
Im only worried for Chem and A.math.. it looks so ugly on my report book.
Guess i need to buck up alot alot more then.
Come to think of it, after talking to mr lai
I came back to square 1 whr i cant decide to go POLY or JC.
Haiz... very hard to explain here because currently my mind is half dead.
ArghhHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tmrw the SUPERB contigent leader SAID that he'll be coming to school
to hand up the statement letters of the 6 scouts frm wichita to the PRINCIPAL
and also to COMMENT on our behaviour thr.
Mr hazmi and dolphin are now currently very angry with him too
So im very sure if he does turn up tmrw, its gonna be hell of a show.
Mr hazmi and i have already prepared that he will not be turning up
NATO. No Action, Talk Only
So yeah... if he's coming, better still.
Im gonna fire in the nicest way i can think of
because i am UNHAPPY and PISSED and EFFING ANGRY
Soo... If people want to play it this way.
We'll give it to them, and also tons of bonuses to add on.

And lastly, after jam. Im feeling abit defiant
Due to the way we were treated there.
So please mind me and the way i talk.
Mostly due to the unhappiness and my weariness everyday.
So tired and occupied now...
3 good medicine for me now are food, rest, exercise
But im missing out the best and most important medicine ):
If i really cant get it, only option is to let time heal the wounds.
haiz. Jingyang, just keep telling urself its always about giving, not receiving.

It sucks........ It really does.